I hit a wall at 4 am this morning. And I wasn’t sure I was going to make it over this obstacle. I’ve been running on adrenaline and prayers for the past 7 1/2 weeks and the exhaustion caught up with me. The tiny baby was awake and I wasn’t sure I was going to make it through his bottle without completely losing it. But I did. And when my alarm went off at 6, I rallied. Had a mini breakdown at work when I first got there, but I knew our first day of PARCC testing and my probability activities for the week were going to be hits. Hugs and cupcakes from coworkers worked as fuel for my soul today.
I ran what felt like a million errands after work today (it was really only 7 stops) before I got to the hospital. But Bob and I talked on the ride in. He said he was happy to finally hear from me and I told him that we had spoken three times already throughout the day. He said he didn’t remember and he said that made him feel bad about himself. So then I felt badly. But, he did remember that I told him he would have a follow up with his neurologist in EHT next week. So that was huge.
I was really concerned when he said he didn’t remember the details of how Michael came to live with us and information about his birth family. That should be long term memory. I reminded him of the history and I think that he is blocking that out because it is painful to think about that knowing how much we adore Mikey. So there are going to be ups and downs and I realize that I’m not totally prepared for any back sliding. More than once Bob told me that he “doesn’t like not feeling sharp”.
I called the concierge at the hospital, Robin, who has been beyond helpful. He job is to make us all more comfortable. She had a white noise machine put in Bob’s room a few weeks ago and tonight she was preparing to deliver a TV with DVD player for us to watch Stepbrothers. I also asked if she could bring us Pat’s steaks tomorrow for lunch. Her response, “whiz wit?” ABSOLUTELY! It’s a surprise for Bob. I actually told him tonight but I still think it will be a surprise. We’re celebrating our “date-aversary” a few days early.
When I got to the fourth floor, Bob had a party in his room. His brother, Kevin, and cousins, Joe and Johnny, were visiting. He was video chatting with his brother, Ryan. I took everyone to the sixth floor to give a tour and get out of his room for a few minutes. Joe commented, “You really want to leave this place? It’s beautiful!” And it is. But I also know my baby wants to come home. And June 12-19 seems SO far away to be discharged for him.
I also got a text from our sweet neighbor, Elisabeth, that my fur baby, Squalie, is doing well with her. He is on her lap anytime she sits down. Just like Brittany, Joey, and I talk about the baby being “broken” when he is held for an entire weekend, my kitty cat will come home broken for sure! She is spoiling him and I appreciate it and the Squals is loving every second.
Bob was going to get ready for bed so he said “you do you” and sent me off to check in to the hotel across the street. My friend, Michael, was working tonight and he has checked me in a few times before. We had previously discussed that boys named Michael are ornery and he has shared pictures of his adorable niece. And tonight he took care of us. He upgraded us to the club level which is free apps and drinks for happy hour and free breakfast in the morning. He told me to hurry up and go grab a drink and snack before they closed.
I can’t go back to a “regular” room now. I’m spoiled.
The gorgeous view from my room tonight. I told Bob about my four star treatment and he asked if we needed to switch our rewards program from Marriott to Sheraton. Ha!
I went back to the hospital and had a great time laughing at Stepbrothers with my hubs. He was near tears at a few points.
“Did we just become best friends? Yep. Do you wanna do karate in the garage? Yep.”
He loves that movie. I stayed an hour past visiting hours and Bob was afraid I would get in trouble. I didn’t. I have made my way back to the hotel and have continued this evening’s laugh track by watching Impractical Jokers.
I’m excited about therapy tomorrow and for my mom and Michael to come up and spend the night tomorrow. And to go back in the pool since I grabbed my little fish a swim vest. 🙄